.Thursday, July 08, 2010 ' 8:44 AM Y
JINX-ED.HELLO LOVES.080710,ITS DEBBIE'S FREAKING 17TH BIRTHDAY. i specially went down to tampines for her ok! we ate kim gary(thats what we ate a year ago!) then chit chatted and went around t1.me,huiling,yeong went home. the rest went to her house and surprise her! hope she enjoyed her day!
for me,this few days isnt the best days of my life,espacially when i'm alone.the reason why i'm not my own self is becoz i start to think,alot unfortunately. even my clique in poly was shocked of that state of me,totally moodless,no smile on the face,no bubbly-ness,no cheering ppl up, no huggings,no jokes,no eunice chua. i dont even know who's that girl that lost her entire soul,dont mention the rest of my frens.eunice chua,you better find your soul back,or not you cant even live a proper life.i'm just a jinx-ed girl,i cant do anything but to admit. i fell badly,really badly.i cant have anything i wanted & i wont have them too.i'm afraid that i cant stand up after this fall.what am i suppose to do? i cant say out what am i sad for,becoz no one will understand how i really feel.i keep telling myself to be brave to face all obstacles by myself,tell myself that i'm independent enough to walk this path alone,strong enough to fight this lonely war.however,there were several times that i broke down when i was alone again.after today,i totally miss those days that i dont have to care about anything.now,one by one,i'm speechless.sorry,and bye.
