.Wednesday, October 13, 2010 ' 7:59 AM Y
ARROW.HELLO loves,
long time no see huh. wow, 11 aug was my last post. yea, sorry blog i've neglected you long enough. this few months was, my happiest moments of the year? especially when it's in holidays. of course, i enjoyed alot in school, with many new friends & seniors taking care of me, but.. putting aside my parents, the most impt ppl in my life is of course my clique from secondary school, u4f8(g4f8 also can). some ppl said that friends are family, just that you get to choose them yourselves. i never regret choosing them to be my family for the rest of my life, though i cant gurantee that something might happen in between, but i believe that i will always be with them no matter where am i now. to think back, we went through alot. happy sad angry, i got to know them even deeper after this vacation chalet. 3d2n, we lived tgt like for a few years already. though sometimes some ppl never fail to make me feel a little angry & helpless, but they are also the ones that can pull me up again. & they are the only ones that know what i'm thinking, and leave me alone to calm down. well, i have no complains already, i only have compliments for them. HAHA. dont come and hao lian in front of me please. sometimes before i sleep, i will smile to myself, not because i'm crazy, but its because the things we done tgt its really funny, going to dim sum one fine morning, then when taking train everyone of us were very drowsy, chatting about ppl's affair in the middle of the night around 2 plus, & when lights off, everyone just doze off. there is many many stuff of course, but yea, i cant possible write it all out right! c'mon, lets have another chalet manxzcxczcz!~
love life? trust me, you wouldnt want to know, AT ALL. whatever, friendship & parents is of course more impt to me at this stage of life. okay fine, yea i'm always the one waiting~ so, if...i never say anything, that means nothing happens okay. looking around me, yea there are lots of couples beside me, somehow they make me feel envy, not to the extend of 'jealous'. i believe that everyone of us are finding their another halves. i dont mind waiting a little longer if he's the right one. i dont want to experience those relationships that could break off easily because of simple reasons.i believe in love, yes i do. but its real love, not infatuation. the past few crushes, okay maybe that only one, trust me its just an infatuation. because after a long time later, i realise that he isnt the one for me, thats why i gave up. i've been on tumblr for quite a period of time, and surprisingly, pictures taught me lots of things, funny;sad;happy;sweet all kinds of emotions, i can put myself into those ppl's shoes. Love? do you really know it means? isit when ppl treat you wholeheartedly? isit when he did something sweet to you? isit when you cant stop thinking about him? isit you think that you cant live without him? isit he made your heart throb when he ignore you & make your heart beat really fast when he talks to you? isit that he did some stuffs that makes you thinks that he's the one for you?or isit he's able to satisfy you no matter physically or emotionally or even financially? If you had to ask me, my answer would be, i dont know. To me, love is unpredictable. although you have some expectations to the person you wanna be, but there is always that person you know that isnt suitable for the expectation of yours. i believe God had already planned what road am i gonna take & who am i gonna meet & spend my whole life with, but i wouldnt know who will it be, it might be that person i'm thinking now, or it might be some young guy younger than me, it might be some person that i known for a long time, or maybe, some stranger that i meet before but i dont know who is he. Unpredictable. To me, love is a promise, it's a trust betweeen 2, it's sweet&bitter, it's eveerlasting, it's a gift. although i know that promises doesnt last long, but there is only one promise that you have to make before 2 can get tgt, i'll protect you no matter what comes around, i'll share everything with you no matter what i have, i'll love you even we're gonna be the next Romeo&Juliet.if you dont trust your another half, what for get tgt? i wont deny that there are some sluts outside that are jealous & wasnted to spoil 2 relationship, but if you could communicate well, dont worry.( i cant gurantee that i can be such gracious, but i'm gonna try)..you have to go through some rainy period before you get to see a beautiful rainbow. i really believe in that, if i didnt get through any bitter stages, then that sweet stage doesnt belong to me. Nothing last forever, including love. so, what you have now..its gonna be eveerlasting 'cause you have stamp it in your heart & brain, thats called 'memory' you're not gonna forget it. lastly, yes its a gift from Heaven. they are the only one for you, take care & let them be the most precious stuffs in your life.
i want to be at a place where i can see you clearly. you'll never know, but who cares? maybe, you & i can run away & escape.thinking of it might be a little childish & overated, but dreaming of you holding me hand & bringing me to a place where i never know, makes me smile from the bottom of my heart. when i woke up & know that this is just dream, the disappointment made me felt very helpless, i should have dream longer. *smile* this is crazy i know. you're too far away from me. too...good to be true.mark my words, in my eyes, there is only gonna be one person & thats you. i'm gonna look at you, like a sunflower. i believe that, if we are meant to be, even you are at a faraway place, we'll still meet...lastly, i love sunflower.
