.Saturday, December 11, 2010 ' 11:04 PM Y
12-4"if i dont write out what i'm thinking, i'll go crazy soon."this is what i found on tumblr, which is true for me for this period of time. i've been neglecting this blog for a few thousand years. its time i should just blog everyday, even for 5 minutes. i realized that its kinda good to write out whatever you can think now, as when times goes by, this blog will be an evidence to see how my life went, which most of my posts are all about shit stuff happened to me.
tmr is blaw, & the timing for the paper is damn stupid, from
430 to 530 at the evening, where most of the teenagers are having their afternoon nap. this seriously sucks i swear. i hope i wont feel sleepy when i'm doing work. my purpose of coming to write post today? i'm just slacking around, procrastinating whether should i continue study or not. i hate it when the problem is right in front of me and yet i cant solve. i hate it when i have to fight the battle alone. i hate it when i feel shitty but i cant do anything. do you know whats the feeling of crying without tears?i like to make myself very tired and then just lie on the bed and crash, so i dont have the energy to let my imagination run wild. for the past few days, it is this case. i cant even bother to explain to my parents why am i so tired when i talk to them on the phone. they know i'm having exams, so they also hardly knock on my door and ask stupid questions, i needa thank them for this. in school, i also cant be bother to talk much saying how much i study & how am i afraid of failing the paper because i know no one can help me. so why the hell should i share this trouble with others when they also having the same trouble as me? its useless to go to school and tell everybody
hey i'm scared, but no one is there to say
you can do it.
no one. dont mention you, even me myself wants to know whats gonna on with me. i tried to be happy, i tried to be cheerful, i tried to forget everything and just have fun. but whenever i'm alone, there is no excuse for me to fake a smile and say
hi i'm happygirl93. when i'm alone, i tend to think. think which road should i go, which step should i take, which way is the best for me.predictably, nothing comes out, & i would wonder to else where.
he..cut his hair. okay i'm letting my mind go everywhere again. moreover, its not my business, shouldnt give a damn.
its none of your business eunice, you should just shut up and study. you'll never find your happiness, get it?
