.Wednesday, December 15, 2010 ' 9:58 PM Y
16-8Never get yourself too attached to anyone as attachment leads to expectations and expectations lead to disappointments.decided to blog in the noon instead of night coz i need to study now, but my head just cant concentrate. i off my phone last night,but i still worried that would he call me at night, what an ass am i. when i woke up today, my first thought was, oh, he's flying tmr, what was the timing again? FREAK. he's there when i'm going to sleep, & he's still there when i woke up. just, take my life please. a part of me hope this is gonna be a
passing crush as if its just another passing crush, i wouldnt be in pain and this is will be over
very very soon. but another part of me hope that this would be a serious one as i proved that
i'm not a fickle-minded girl.
this is freaking indecisive, what is happening to me omg. sometimes i hope that somebody would just knock me down and make me forget everything. this is abit too much for me take. yes i'm trying very hard to make myself busy because i dont want to think of him. i do work, i watch tv, i play games, i drink coffee, i walk around, i see the scenery outside my house, i go on tumblr,
i do whatever things. but when those things came to an end,
his image would be on my mind again. when i closed my eyes, i would see how he smile and what he did to make me smile, i opened my eyes and found myself shivering.
this had never happen before, never in my life. i found myself getting too attached to him. i was wrong from the start, i shouldnt even let him step into my life. i should just ignore his texts and calls. i should dao him when he say hi to me.
but i failed. i failed badly, very badly. gosh, tell me what to do,tell me what to do to stop this. i've been moaning like there is no tomorrow, because i cant see that when i'll be happy again.
i cant see & that scares me. i'm tired of guessing.
