.Sunday, December 19, 2010 ' 5:24 AM Y
Presents? Presence?The fact that everything will be alright, does not necessarily make anything all right now.i'm a pathetic soul, i need music to actually keep my mood high up. once the music stop, i'll be hit right to the ground.
Sunday, how would you spend it? for a few years, i've been staying at home and either study or rot at this wonderful day. my parents will go out dating, friends would be with their family. i'll only have dinner with my family at night. for the whole afternoon i have to entertain myself. i packed my room today, & found
that movie ticket. i initially thought that i've lost it, so i didnt go search for it. but i found it just now, have that
'oh gosh it's back to me' de feeling. packed here cleaned there, kept myself occupied for that hour or plus. but when i finished everything, all emotions rushed back to my head.i started to think again. i cant stand that so i went out to living room and start to watch boring shows, which successfully kept me occupied. i dont want anyone to ask me whether i'm in love or out of love, thats why i stopped tweeting about such stuffs on twitter. why? because i dont know how to reply those qns. i dont know where to start and where to end. it's useless to tell them the whole story because no one understands.no one would understand why am i doing this to myself like i'm killing myself bit by bit.
this is a numbing process, the more i hurt myself, the lesser injuries i will get if others were to hurt me, get it?i wish you would call me up & tell me how much you miss me, & how much you miss everything with me. but i know it's impossible...
