.Tuesday, December 21, 2010 ' 7:55 AM Y
Reminisce.Love is the easiest thing there is. It’s the layers of doubt, fear, and expectation that make it complicated.reached home quite late yesterday, and was kinda exhausted, so didnt update. went out with desmond jiahui & liting. before that, i told myself that i cannot make the day be ruined, so i decided to just put down everything and have fun. went astons & ate my grilled fish with herbs. it had been a long time since i ate that. watched rapunzel at 440. that was a really nice movie. i.. totally can feel the pain of rapunzel when she looked at eugene's backview and just left on the boat. there was a few scenes that i found really touching, i cannot forget one is the.. lighting
up of lanterns, just to search for the lost princess. & both of them are at the boat, looking at the lanterns flying up. it was beautiful. the ending was of course predictable. after that, went to vivo's daiso and shop for my travel stuff. hang around in tangs for more than 30mins just for liting to get her freaking bag. but whatever, i got my bag free which its kinda worth. went home after that & start to pack my luggage.
however,
life isnt any fairytale, it's not happy-ever-after,the end. for the past few days, i'm getting bad to worst. really. i cant explain why, but its just bad to worst. i start to rmb every single thing, or should i say,
reminisce every single thing. i'm wondering which part of the world he's at now, can he get use to the jet lag, did he wear enough clothings, will he be in any danger in such a huge country, is he seeing the same moon as me.... but, i think if he's back, nothing will change from now.
no texts, no calls.
i start to get used to this. everything is back to normal, just that my heart isnt there anymore. i swear, i can feel that whatever thing i do, my heart will be at somewhere else. i must find back my heart before he's back. it's a must. oh, mom asked me whether i've any crush now, the first person i thot was him,but then i smiled and say "no". that's gonna be my answer, for the rest of my life. if i dont want to get hurt, i should not have any crush in the first place, i should not have any feelings in the first place. i wont be a slut saying that i would just date any guys, because i will only date if only i'm interested. no interest, no date, no love.
i should just shave my hair and be a nun.Faith,Hope,Love; which one is the most important?
