.Thursday, January 13, 2011 ' 6:11 AM Y
Athazagoraphobia - fear of being forgotten or ignored.It takes ten times as long to put yourself back together as it does to fall apart.i know i need to stop being so damn emotional about everything.i know
sometimes letting go is much more easier than trying again. i know that others always let me down & i should forget them & do something for myself. i know that
if i walk away but no one chase me, i should keep walking.i know that
if it doesnt meant to be, it wont happen at all. i know that
if one door closes, there is always another door that will be open for me.but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us..i wonder if you ever stop to think: "man i miss her". & you know what?
sometimes the simple things mean the most to me. actually i'm saying all this is because i'm trying to avoid.
Avoiding something doesn’t always mean that you hate it. It could also mean that you want it so bad but you just can’t have it. It causes to much hurt, so you just simply avoid it. when it really hurt so badly, you cant cry at all. the only thing you can do is just sitting there and stone. ever tried before? understand why i cant sleep every night now? you know what i'm going through now?
That awkward moment when you want to text someone, but don’t want to seem annoying or clingy so you don’t text them and then they think you’ve lost interest so they dont text you too. i dont know how to approah you anymore. you're so close yet so far. the reason i dont want to talk to you is because i keep telling myself that, if you wanted to speak to me, you would.I'm waiting for you to say it first so I don't look like a dumbass and say it without you feeling the same way. I'm sorry that I'm not the most interesting person to talk to online, I'm sorry that I always want you to start the convo. I'm sorry I think about you 24/7 and I'm sorry for expecting a lot of you. I'm sorry that there are prettier girls than me, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I love you so much. last question,
how do you begin to unlike somebody? isit as easy as unliking a comment on facebook? teach me how to do it. i will donate my assets just to learn how to do that. i sound like a freaking despo, i start to think that i'm a slut & start hate myself. bye.
