.Sunday, January 30, 2011 ' 4:32 AM Y
Unfinished dreamsSometimes it’s better to push someone away, not because you stopped loving that someone but because there comes a point that you have to shield yourself from pain.hi i'm back. i was drenched last night after the concert, & hence i woke up with slight fever in the morning.i could have slept off my ass the whole afternoon because it was a very very very good weather to sleep in, but i woke up at 10plus because...
i'm hungry, teehee. watched tv while waiting for parents to buy back for me & they bought noodle soup for me. i was spamming my mom's super spicy chilli to my noodles & i perspired like some dog. guess what, my slide fever subsided! continue to watch abit of tv & went to do my tuts. went to sleep at 4 plus because my sofa is super tempting, & woke up at 5plus.i dreamt of something, where i shouldnt be dreaming about him in the first place. what a nightmare. realized its raining outside, no wonder so coldddddd. dad bought curry fish head for dinner,
SHIOK MAX i swear. ya i know its super fattening, but i just
cant stop myself from eating the fish head, too shiok liao.HAHAHA! then went to bathe & i end up blogging instead of doing work, sigh. today is the 30th right? omgosh one more day,
& this hectic january will be over.
cant understand why i cant wait for this january to be over? this january, i've gone through alot. & it's really alot,
it's like a roller coaster. i went through sweet times, thought that i would be able to bring a partner for all gatherings, ending up it's just a dream, it's a heartache. he gave me hell, it's the type of hell that i've never experience before. i went through this with friends that i never expect that they will be with me. i went through friendship crisis too,
saw many ugly truth & heard unexpected sayings.after all these nonsense happened, i learnt to be
strong, to be
hard-hearted, to be
bitchier&sluttier than before. i've learnt to protect myself from all heartaches &
i cannot afford another one. i was taught this world is cruel & i must guard my heart. i must
never expect, never assume, never ask, never demand. Just let it be, because if it's meant to be, it will eventually happen.
PS: hey you, you totally remind me of him. i start to guard my heart against you.
